A selfie can signify so many different emotions. One could interpret these as someone crying out for attention, the need to be "liked", or could these people truly be happy with their lives? Don't misinterpret this post though, I enjoy taking pictures of myself, but I've learned that many of these photos don't need to be shared with the rest of the world. Recently, I decided to do a bit of an analysis on my social media accounts regarding who and what type of people I keep up with. I came across several selfie junkies seemingly obsessed with showing the world a daily photo or even more than one a day into their lives, however, most of these photos are of them in a not so surprisingly repetitive state of pose.
It's a rather odd fascination in that I enjoy looking at the online behavior of several individuals that I have never even met. There is a society out there that is rather thirsty and these so called junkies satisfy that craving. From my analysis, I came to a somewhat jaded conclusion that for me to be in a successful relationship, I need to find someone who is always posting a selfie or some sort of ridiculous photo daily detailing this relationship that they are so happy about. It's been my experience though that anyone who keeps professing their relationship online are the ones in need of help or desperately trying to convince themselves that everything is fine through showcasing their relationship to the world.
I've been a selfie junkie in the past. There was a time when I would post maybe 7-12 selfies a week on average for a good year or so. I wanted attention, recognition, acceptance. It was also a time in my life when I was on quite a high but then as normal, the low kicked in rather roughly shifting everything around.
In time, I would learn that there was another way I could get attention if I still craved it as much as I did then. That would be the fun loving season called Halloween. I've always enjoyed this holiday, but with each year that passes us by, I've increased the passion I have in the holiday. The desire to create the best costumes is something very few possess. It's like being a selfie junkie, if you have the desire, you can make anything happen.
I decided to increase my costumes and go all out. From Maleficent to Floki this year, the attention to detail is a trait that I am rather proud of. But it was one costume that I decided to do ten years ago but waited until this year that will forever change how I view Halloween, selfie junkies, and myself.
As I aged from my mid 20s to now, I have been somewhat ashamed of my hair and the fact that it was slowly starting to fall out over time. Outside of work, it would be a rare moment for me to be out in public without a hat on my head. Back in 2007 when Britney Spears had her very public meltdown, I made a declaration that I would dress as that moment in her career for Halloween whenever I was ready to shave my head. I decided after doing Lestat last year for Halloween that it was time for Britney to happen. I got the costume in order early in the year in an effort to prepare myself for having my head shaved bald for the very first time.
As it came closer to the day of the costume, I began to panic and wonder why would I ever want to shave my head down, but I also assured myself that in order to do this costume correctly, you have to shave your head. I was not going to back down and do a half ass job at the costume unlike so many other costumes I had seen before and after this costume reveal.
I went into the shop to get my head shaving with a bit of trepidation, but once it was done, I felt so relieved and much lighter. A burden that I carried with me all these years was gone. My lack of a full head of hair was resolved in less than 5 minutes with a nice clean shave. My head was bare and I was exposed for everyone to see.
I couldn't be more proud of myself for finally following through with the promise I made myself in 2007. I'm quite happy with shaving my head, major change for me. You would think I would be posting pictures all the time showing it off, but there is no reason to consistently push my face out for the world to see. What's the point of even posting selfies? What's the point of the attention? Do we always need reassurance or acceptance? Why can't we just do what we want to do and not worry about what others think?
There is no desire to cover up anymore, hell I haven't worn a hat since I got my head shaved. That may change with the weather though, ha. There is no deceit or misleading posts. There is no self absorbed motivation or desire to be followed by thirsty individuals. I'm just me, bare and exposed for all to see, peel back the layers and come inside!